ZZ5, who claimed interests in art, public speaking, writing and politics, was so proud of her ability in BSing that she had noted it on a high school information card. During the trial, ZZ5 testified that after Jovanovic drove her from her dorm to have dinner on the night of November 21, 1996, she willingly accompanied him home to his small New York apartment. She sat next to him, looking at photos in an art book and watching a video that they had discussed in their e-mail--works whose imagery included still lifes of cut-up corpses, and scenes of hideously maimed live people in various stages of torture.They also continued their "fascinating" discussion of other topics from e-mail: dismemberment, Jeffrey Dahmer, sci-fi creatures devouring each other during intercourse, good and evil, the danger of contracting AIDS and other diseases from unprotected sex, schizophrenia, self-defense, and more.It is a play on the French word zut, reflecting ZZ5's interest in French, words and phrases of which dotted her e-mail. The prosecution claimed that the cybersex victim was a naive and vulnerable young woman who was lured to her torture by a man whose e-mail was thai of a dangerous sexual sadist.
It has turned the expression of traditional romantic love into its opposite, converting potential lovers into rival Scheherazades, each trying to top the other with the most sordid and shocking images or ideas. The two proceeded to discuss their prior experience in RPGs (computer role-playing games), their parents, educational backgrounds, and career aspirations (hers to be a lawyer, his to get his doctorate). ZZ5 laments her lack of morals, her prior "girly"-ness, her "fickelly obsessive" tendencies in relationships.
The first Instant Message between ZZ5 and Gray begins innocuously. Minutes later she confided her first sexual fantasy, along with her interest in "violence and chaos," her yearning to make a snuff film--a genre that ends in an actual death--and her interest in creating an army so as to make war on New York streets. Gray alludes rhetorically to his stupidity, his average, non-glamorous height, his "strange and dark" appearance and occasional resemblance to "a serial killer."Initially their cyber-correspondence was sporadic.
She delayed seeking medical help for the supposedly painful aftermath of her ordeal for several days. "Quite bruised mentally and physically, but never been so happy to be alive, now if I'm happy simply because I'm not dead, well, some may question that. [William] Burroughs best sums my state, saying something about rotting eggs or rotting cheese, the taste is so overpoweringly delicious, and at the same time, quite nausiating so that one will eat and puke and eat and puke until collapsing from exhaustion." "As happy as ever, and with renewed enthusiasm for life," she wrote in her last note.
Conclusive physical evidence in the case was lacking.
Handles with Care The then 30-year-old Jovanovic and his accuser, a 20-year-old English and philosophy major at Barnard College, met in an America On-line chat room at the end of her freshman year.